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I've gotten a few inquiries from people about whether or not I'm at A-Kon right now because they couldn't find my table, and the unfortunate answer is no, I am not there. I had to withdraw. For the first time in 13 years. And it is killing me softly.
As I've said in my last two journal entries here, I'm far more active on tumblr now. If you follow me over there then you probably know about this stuff, but for those who don't, my personal life has been a hellscape since October 2017. At the beginning of October I blew out one of the discs in my lower back and had to suffer through six solid weeks of level 11+ pain before I was finally able to have surgery two days before Thanksgiving. The herniation was so severe and compressed one of my sacral nerves so badly that my surgeon said the nerve was actually black when he got in there to remove the herniation and relieve the pressure. I'm still dealing with slight numbness and muscle tightness in my right leg due to the nerve healing, and I had to wear a stabilizer on my right ankle for several months after the surgery because the numbness was causing me to roll my ankle slightly with every step I took, which made it balloon up like a baseball every night without a brace.
I was recovering all through the Holidays and didn't really have any Holidays as a result.
In January I went on my family's annual WDW trip and we all caught the flu and were stuck in the room for five days, and we then spent the rest of the trip feeling crappy because we were getting over being sick. I felt cheated because I really needed that vacation.
At the end of February my oldest sister, Michelle, passed away from liver failure at only 51. Anybody who has been following me for a long time will remember that I lost my middle sister, Angeline, to breast cancer in January of 2010 at only 41. I am now the only child my parents have left.
On the DAY that we buried Michelle's urn in the family plot at the cemetery, we found out my sweet little dog, Sushi, had late stage lymphoma with only a couple months left to live. She's only 9. Our last dog of the same breed lived to be 16. This isn't fair.
So with all of this coupled with the fact that Sushi is at the end of her life now, I just didn't have it in me emotionally, mentally, or physically to do a huge convention and I had to withdraw from A-Kon.
I fully intend to be back for A-Kon 2019, and hopefully in a better place mentally and emotionally if life will just leave me the fuck alone for five minutes.
As I've said in my last two journal entries here, I'm far more active on tumblr now. If you follow me over there then you probably know about this stuff, but for those who don't, my personal life has been a hellscape since October 2017. At the beginning of October I blew out one of the discs in my lower back and had to suffer through six solid weeks of level 11+ pain before I was finally able to have surgery two days before Thanksgiving. The herniation was so severe and compressed one of my sacral nerves so badly that my surgeon said the nerve was actually black when he got in there to remove the herniation and relieve the pressure. I'm still dealing with slight numbness and muscle tightness in my right leg due to the nerve healing, and I had to wear a stabilizer on my right ankle for several months after the surgery because the numbness was causing me to roll my ankle slightly with every step I took, which made it balloon up like a baseball every night without a brace.
I was recovering all through the Holidays and didn't really have any Holidays as a result.
In January I went on my family's annual WDW trip and we all caught the flu and were stuck in the room for five days, and we then spent the rest of the trip feeling crappy because we were getting over being sick. I felt cheated because I really needed that vacation.
At the end of February my oldest sister, Michelle, passed away from liver failure at only 51. Anybody who has been following me for a long time will remember that I lost my middle sister, Angeline, to breast cancer in January of 2010 at only 41. I am now the only child my parents have left.
On the DAY that we buried Michelle's urn in the family plot at the cemetery, we found out my sweet little dog, Sushi, had late stage lymphoma with only a couple months left to live. She's only 9. Our last dog of the same breed lived to be 16. This isn't fair.
So with all of this coupled with the fact that Sushi is at the end of her life now, I just didn't have it in me emotionally, mentally, or physically to do a huge convention and I had to withdraw from A-Kon.
I fully intend to be back for A-Kon 2019, and hopefully in a better place mentally and emotionally if life will just leave me the fuck alone for five minutes.
Follow me on tumblr to see life updates, picspam of Sushi, WIPs and other art stuffs.
A New Thorn and DeviantART Protection
Yes, I'm still alive. 2021 was far more kind to me than 2020 was, but that's not saying much. Blah blah blah, my mental health has been in the toilet, blah blah blah, y'all likely aren't interested in that. lol As for the new thorn? NFTs. From the moment I first heard about online artists having their work taken and minted/stolen without their consent to be sold on NFT marketplaces like OpenSea, I knew I would eventually get hit. I just didn't anticipate it happening so soon. A few days before Christmas I was notified by one of my very longtime followers over on Insta that two of my old Inuyasha pieces, Can't Take it In -- Colored and Winter Gift, had been stolen and listed on OpenSea. Then on Christmas Eve I was informed that a third piece, Midnight Moon: Renji, was also stolen. I found out about that one because of deviantART Protect. I know I've bitched and complained about CORE ever since it was instated for it not being worth the price tag (and I still don't really think it
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I just had to get that old entry off of my front page since it was over a year old.
My life isn't a hellscape anymore.
I'll type something more significant later. lol
Heeeey another year with no journal. Also: Tumblr.
But there's been art! Lots of figure skating art! Yeah!
If you're not into Yuri on Ice, though... sorry. Can't help ya.
And I'm not really sorry.
The main point of this post is to remind anybody who still watches me here on dA that I have a tumblr account where I am far more active. It's right here, also as KrisCynical.
I'm going to be uploading the old InuKag artwork that dA axed all those years ago due to their asinine "epilogues don't count" witch hunt policy very soon. So if you're not into Yuri on Ice -- which is what my blog is primarily about along with some politics -- there will be some Inuyasha thrown in there as well. All of my
I'm not dead and my hands didn't fall off.
So... um... yeeeeah.
I haven't uploaded anything since December of 2014 and its downright pathetic of me, I know. I have a stack of stuff to post, too... I just need to sit down and DO IT. I'm sorry, guys, really I am. So no, I haven't stopped illustrating and creating. My hands are still attached, fully functioning, and create-able. My brain is still functioning in the same create-able capacity reasonably well, too.
I guess I dropped off of dA for awhile out of being just... completely disgusted with it? Policy changes, the general atmosphere of disrespect from the admins toward all of us deviants, the ridiculous lengths and contortions th
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